Walking!

I find myself convicted and wanting to be different!  We as Christians have "become so modern" in our beliefs.  So often we are going through life on a path, but whose path is it.  We were created for Him.  We are not our own, but have been bought with a price!  Are we making decisions based on Him or what is "convenient" for us?
For me tonight this  question was posed in my heart about children.  Do we know the Fathers heart on this...I say yes!  All to often we try to "fit" having children in when it would be convenient for us.  If we are following Him on His path and he says he is the opener and closer of wombs, do we trust him.  Why do we still think we have to "figure" it out, toil , strive, and be anxious for something that is supposed to be in His hands.  We are only human, yes, but for me, I want to lay down my selfishness and walk with Him.  My LIFE after all is supposed to be centered around HIM...not ME!